Sunday, November 30, 2008

My Grandpa Passed Away Last Night

I just need to write to get it all out. I have been a mess as it is. Yesterday we got a call from my Mom, just checking in. She didn't talk a lot, but she finally let me know that her Dad had pnuemonia bad, but they were hoping it wouldn't be bad. We got off the phone and Ty and I went to get our Christmas tree. We got all of our lights up and the tree all decorated. Then last night we got a call from my brother. He talked to my DH and they were very hushed and stayed away from me. Tyler came back out and was very quiet. I thought they were talking about presents. He paused Tivo and told me that they didn't know if my Grandpa would make it through the night. Tyler wasn't suposed to tell me because my Mom didn't want me to be upset more than I had to be. T couldn't keep it from me.

I called my Mom right away and found out that she couldn't tell me. She is worried sick that I would cancel the procedure and not go through. She wanted me to not know before we were on our way to the ER. I told her she had to promise me that she would call when it happened. She did. I got the call I was dreading at 11pm.

My Grandpa was such a strong man for so long. He was a man's man. Very masculine and gruff. I was scared of him as a child, but loved him just the same. He had been in a nursing home for some time now with leg/circulation problems and his life had diminished greatly. I know he did not want to live like he was. I am so sad for my family but grateful that he won't suffer anymore.

Tomorrow we do the ER. I pray that this will be the good news we need. I need something to go right. I need someone watching over us, and I hope my Grandpa will be there. I now have 2 grandfathers in Heaven and I pray they take care of each other and me. Love you.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Day 7 Stim Check

It has been one week of Bravelle/Menopur and we are ready for the big show. I have 14 follies on the right side and 12 on the left and they are still growing. Estradiol is 1817. We are looking at a trigger tomorrow night and ER on Monday. Off we go....

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Day 5 stim check

Today I found out that I have 24 follies, 12 on each side. I have 13 measurable and we are off to a great start. I have an appointment again Friday morning to see where we stand. Later on I got the call from my Nurse that my estradiol is 750 and Dr. J is happy with my progress.

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone!!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Stim, Stim, Stim, Stim, Stim, Stim to Doo

Bravelle and Menopur are officially surging through my body. I could actually feel my ovaries twinging yesterday. It is crazy. Emotions are running high.

I went in for an appointment Wednesday to ask my Doc a few questions and I am confident in our chances. I was starting to worry about a 5 day transfer.... losing them all before I could get them back, and we added the Menopur into our injection schedule.

First stim check is Wednesday. Keep your fingers crossed :)

Sunday, November 16, 2008

A new look

Well tonight I had a near meltdown when I changed the look of my blog. I saved the template, and when I switched over and reloaded the template, I had lost all of my information. I was beyond upset. Dear hubby came to the rescue and got me back in shape. The purpose of this blog has always been so I have a detailed account of what has happened during our journey to Baby Ru.

So now I have a new look and I feel a whole lot better than I did 30 minutes ago. Starting stims at the end of this week. Keeping those fingers crossed...

Monday, November 10, 2008

Game On!

With all signs looking down, today turned out to not be such a bad day. I went in for my early AM appt only to see the cyst still there on my left ovary. I cried during the sono out of frustration thought it would be a pretty slim chance seeing stims this month. I had my blood taken and off I went, down as ever.

This afternoon I called back in for my results. I found out my estradiol went from 466 last Monday down to 44 today. I was so grateful. So even though I missed this weeks stim cycle, I start stims the 2oth with an ER the first week of December. We will see what happens next...

Monday, November 3, 2008

And there it is.... a cyst

I have a cyst on my left ovary. I guess it isn't a true cyst. It is a bit smaller than what is considered a cyst, but it is producing enormous amounts of Estradiol. My estradiol level is 466 and they want it to be under 50, so yah......

Now I have to go back on the pill for a week, taking the pill 3 times a day and I get rechecked on Monday. I am not sure what this means for us, but I am trying to keep thinking positive.

Now what else can happen? Just waiting.....

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Baseline tomorrow

There is nothing like a date with the sono machine to start up a new IVF cycle. Tomorrow at 7am, I will be in the Doctor's office getting checked out and Thursday I start stims. Shots have been going ok. The lupron headache started yesterday and it is better today. Having back spasms from the football game yesterday. Yes... I am falling apart.