Sunday, March 29, 2009

Hard Days

It has been a rough go of it lately. I have been sensitive...way sensitive with everything. I cry at anything remotely motherly/fatherly and it just hits me. I know we are on a break. I know it is supposed to be good for us, but sometimes it just hurts, kills even. Stories from our parents about thinking if they should have more children or not; financially unstable cousins have more babies; it is just too much. Today it is too much and I know that is ok. I will have days like this and I cope. I hope it will be better tomorrow, but if it is not, and it is ok. I will be ok and I will keep calm and carry on.

Thanks for listening.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

It's been awhile.

It's been a couple of weeks since the Lap and I am doing well. I am healing. The infection seems to be gone and we are enjoying our down time. We have gone on several motorcycle rides and are doing home improvement jobs all over.

Today I spent most of the day outside cleaning up and organizing the patio and garage. It was so nice to be out in the Sun. I was followed around by the neighbor kids asking 1000 questions... but it was nice.

We have decided to take a nice break from the IF world. It won't be long, but we are making the most of it. 3 weeks in Florida and lots of day trips on the side. :) We are getting back to being us. We are making the most out of the time we have now and enjoying ourselves, and I am loving it.
Some days I feel guilty for letting my embies stay frozen longer than they need to be, but when I get them back; we will be ready.

I am thinking about everyone else and what they are going through and I wish you all the best. We will be back in action in June/July... but until then, it is relaxation time! Yay!