Called Doctor's Office

Called office....cyst found....taking a ton of pills... puking my guts out..... enough said.

Back in the saddle again....

Tomorrow I call into the DR's office with CD1 and schedule my cd3 sonogram and bloodwork. It feels weird to be doing this again, to be honest. Last night I kind of melted down on Tyler when we were going to bed because I was so terrified of our lil frosties not making the thaw. I won't sleep sound until I hear from the lab that they thawed ok. Keep your fingers and toes crossed for us... we will need all the good thoughts and prayers we can get that this FET will go better than the last.

It's THAT weekend

Well Ladies, for some of us, we find ourselves here again where the world celebrates what we have not become. Mothers. I find this weekend to be very bitter-sweet. I love my Mom to pieces but I cannot buy a card for her. I lose it every time I enter a card store. So I took the easy way out, I sent flowers. I will call her today and wish her a Happy Mother's Day and then tomorrow I will hide from the world. No Tv, no stores, no radio..... just me and the DH working outside making our house beautiful.

Today my Hubby surprised me with a date night. I have been having anxiety attacks lately and he knew I was struggling to keep it together. He was so cute about everything. He took me to our local Vineyard, somewhere we have never been. It was absolutely delightful. We did a wine tasting and then got a couple of glasses of wine and some cheese and sat outside and enjoyed the afternoon. It was so nice just to talk. We talked about how I have been truly stressed to the max and how he wanted to help make me feel better. We talked about how I am terrified of scheduling the FET because of us losing the 4 embryos last time we tried. We just talked.... and talked some more.

After we finished our wine, we headed to Prairie Gardens, a garden center, to look for some stuff for the House. It was packed so we didn't spend much time there but we found some great tree ideas for the future.

Ko Fusion was the dinner choice for tonight. It is the local sushi joint and it is delish! We wrapped up the night with cupcakes and coffee at the cupcake cafe and then went to the movies and saw State of Play, which was really good.

It was a great night. We talked about what we wanted to. We snuggled and had lovey eyes :) Ty is just the best.

NIAW 2009

It is National Infertility Awareness Week this week and I just came out on FaceBook. It was a risky move, but I wanted to support the cause. Each day I will be posting another status update to help raise awareness for this unbelievably horrible hand dealt to us and so many other people. Will you join us in getting the word out?

Still Kicking...

All is good. Very good to be honest. We are on month 4 of our self-imposed Break and it is nice getting back to being a sane couple. I will be calling the Doc in a few weeks to set up an FET schedule for July, but until then we have weekends away and 2 weeks in Florida to look forward to. Hope this is finding you well.

-Lindsay

Hard Days

Ugh...
It has been a rough go of it lately. I have been sensitive...way sensitive with everything. I cry at anything remotely motherly/fatherly and it just hits me. I know we are on a break. I know it is supposed to be good for us, but sometimes it just hurts, kills even. Stories from our parents about thinking if they should have more children or not; financially unstable cousins have more babies; it is just too much. Today it is too much and I know that is ok. I will have days like this and I cope. I hope it will be better tomorrow, but if it is not, and it is ok. I will be ok and I will keep calm and carry on.

Thanks for listening.

It's been awhile.

It's been a couple of weeks since the Lap and I am doing well. I am healing. The infection seems to be gone and we are enjoying our down time. We have gone on several motorcycle rides and are doing home improvement jobs all over.

Today I spent most of the day outside cleaning up and organizing the patio and garage. It was so nice to be out in the Sun. I was followed around by the neighbor kids asking 1000 questions... but it was nice.

We have decided to take a nice break from the IF world. It won't be long, but we are making the most of it. 3 weeks in Florida and lots of day trips on the side. :) We are getting back to being us. We are making the most out of the time we have now and enjoying ourselves, and I am loving it.
Some days I feel guilty for letting my embies stay frozen longer than they need to be, but when I get them back; we will be ready.

I am thinking about everyone else and what they are going through and I wish you all the best. We will be back in action in June/July... but until then, it is relaxation time! Yay!